It's Love That Keeps Fueling Me

I miss my ex..

Because he was my best friend. There’s not a minute that goes by that I don’t miss him. No matter how hard I try I can’t stop missing him or thinking about him. It’s not because I want to get back together with him, it’s just because he was my best friend. He was the person I seemed to tell everything too. I could go to him with all my problems and he would give me the advice I would give myself if I wasn’t in the same situation. I miss the constant smile I would have on my face when I would talk to him. I miss the way he would make me laugh. I miss the things he would say, the things that only he could come up with. I miss every single thing about him. I can get past the fact that he hurt me multiple times in our relationship, but I can’t get past the fact that I lost him as a best friend. Yeah, I’ll always love him in a way. I just wish he would talk to me.. I hate that now that he’s in a relationship he’s going to just cast me aside like I’m nothing. Maybe in a way I still am in love with him, but in another way I know I’m not. I just miss him and this sucks ballz.

Fuck my life.

I want no need him back in my life as my best friend again.